Experience of many lifetimes @ Simhastha Kumbh Mela

I just got back from an incredible 21-day program called Suddhavaditam which happened in Ujjain during the Simhasta Kumbh Mela with my Guru, Paramahamsa Nithyananda (fondly known as Swamiji). The program was attended by some 3,500 people from all over the world – the largest program ever conducted by Swamiji in a built-up camp from a 9-acre bare land.

In the camp, everything was run by volunteers or adheenamvashis (residents of Bengaluru adheenam) – be it kitchen, housekeeping, free food (annalaya) for public, free medical camp and a huge 108-deities temple with an exception of a few hired workers for cooking, washing and maintenance of the camp. Literally it was like a dream created out of nothing, yet everything happened in that extraordinary dream.

These 3 weeks had been an unimaginable roller coaster ride filled with excitement, fear, irritation, anger, love, compassion, kindness, healing, completion and bliss. On the first day of the opening of the program we were thrilled that many of us made it to the program despite all the obstacles which came our way. After the first initiation, then came the first storm after a heightened mood of celebration which flooded certain parts of the camp – the event hall and the dormitories. My bunk bed and part of my luggage were affected by the storm, we spent the 2 days walking in muddy floor and slippery ground. That night I had to share the bed with a female friend who generously offered to let me sleep with her. The amazing thing was the first storm didn’t dampen our spirit as we just focused on the recovery of the situation and started rolling up our sleeves to dry the hall with buckets and trays. Despite the wet ground, Swamiji gave us the first initiation as nothing would stop this from happening. Within 2 days, the water on carpeted floor in the hall and the ground dried up due to the hot weather. The first lesson we learned was – Focus on the right actions to get back on track and never entertain the negative emotions – this strategy actually helped us to overcome the discomfort of the first storm very quickly.

Swamiji began the first initiation of the higher 7 powers of 3rd eye – having a telescopic vision, power to see beyond an obstacle, power to see from distant, power to see one’s thought currents and emotions, power to see internal organs and scan others’ bodies. He followed up with another initiation into 4 powers of crown center ( Sahasrara chakra) – power to visualise complex intricacies, verbalise, internalise and digest any concept. Next he initiated us into another 2 powers of crown chakra – power of psychological levitation and physical levitation. The initiations awakened the qualities of bliss and living without patterns. The initiations generated a lot of excitement as we could see the manifestation of powers during the practice session facilitated by Ma Mahayogananda.

On the 4th day of the program, the Singapore and Malaysia groups were assigned the responsibility of serving food and cleaning after each meal for the participants and public visitors as a part of our volunteering service (seva). While doing seva of serving food, I witnessed all kinds of food patterns of human existence – people eating too much driven by the senses, people getting annoyed when they couldn’t get the food they wanted, people wasting food without feeling respect for food, people who don’t take the responsibility in bringing their own food tray to the washing bay after eating. In the first few days, these behaviours triggered a lot of agitations within me, I totally lost my cool! Why can’t people understand that we are all volunteers here? If each one of us can play our role, it would make everyone’s experience better. The moment I looked in, I cognized that there were people whose fulfilment derived from food itself besides being in Swamiji’s presence, I dropped the judgment and instead, I brought new understanding and completion, which put me back to the space of completion. With that clarity, I was able to continue with the serving of food feeling more complete. Interestingly, the more I served the lesser my appetite became as the days went by. By the end of the 21-day, I was very complete with my food patterns and I was ready to go beyond food living as a divine being.

The first Shahi snaan (holy bath) at the holy Shipra River was filled with so much excitement for all of us. After taking bath and dressed in traditional Sari for women or Yoga vastram for men, we gathered at 2 am to prepare for the procession and we hit the street in large contingent carrying colourful Vedic umbrellas, flags, deities as well as country flags. We danced to the rhythm of Nithya Kirtans (divine music) as we walked 2.5 km to the ghat (holy dip area).  As we hardly slept that night, so some of us took turns to rest along the way. When it was our turn to take the snaan, Swamiji led the team and entered into the river and took 3 dips. The rest of us followed suit but everything happened so quickly, we dropped the procession items and slippers, went into the river and submerged the body by taking 3 quick dips in the cool water. The next moment I realised the policemen yanked us out of the water and moved us away. After the holy bath, a feeling of bliss and completion emanating from my Being was felt as I walked my way back to our camp. Now I fully appreciate the sacred science of taking shahi snaan at Kumbh Mela – the power of cleansing of the sins and tasting of the nectar (amrita)!

After the Shahi snaan came the 2nd storm, this time it was a nasty cyclone which happened in the afternoon during lunch break. The group of us was serving food at serving area and a strong rustling of the wind started to sway the ceiling fans and the tent structure. The next moment we witnessed a large cyclone hit the area and blew down the front structure of the camp and then we saw a few zinc sheets from the temple roof flew off just like paper sheets. That was the moment a massive fear engulfed in all of us and someone shouted “Squat down” as we started to take cover under the food serving counters. This 2nd cyclone shook many participants to their core, many left the program the next few days as they didn’t have the strength to handle further shocks in their nervous system. One really needs a strong spleen to handle the fear attack of utter insecurity. For those who stayed on, this time we became much more prepared than the first storm, the group divided themselves into different teams to focus on recovery. Within 2 days, we were back on track! Swamiji later shared that when he saw the cyclone hitting the camp, he quickly shielded the area using his power and diverted the impact of the cyclone so that nobody was hurt. He assured that the test of Nature was over, there would not be any more storms. What a relief! The lessons I learned from this incident: 1) In situation of a natural calamity, you simply trust the master who is the Source since Nature listens to the Source, 2) If you are not able to relax into the laps of Cosmos in the presence of a living incarnation, wherever you go, you can never feel settled. I’ve learned to trust the master to protect us from all natural disasters. After this 2nd storm, the weather had been hot and sunny till we left the camp!

The 2nd Shahi snaan was another memorable experience. As it was the final Shahi snaan of the Simhastha Kumbh, the huge public crowd started to fill the street when we started the procession by walking to the snaan ghat. At one section of the road, it became too crowded and the policemen were not able to manage the crowd control properly. The public started to push and squeeze into the procession, many of us felt sandwiched like a sardine. The intense suffocation frightened me and I just prayed to be relieved from this situation. Soon enough, the policemen came to our rescue and opened the barricade and moved us to another road. It turned out that the 2nd Shahi snaan was the most beautiful experience as I was able to take the holy dip at my own time, completely enjoying the cool holy water with the deity –Nithyanandeswara, which was nicely tucked in my kavi (shawl) that I was carrying throughout the journey to Shahi snaan.

While the happening was going on as a flow of the event, we were also given time to practise the manifestation of powers after the initiations by Swamiji. By using the power of 3rd eye, some of us were able to see the room of another person through their inner space even though they have not visited their home. I was able to read the thought currents of others as well as describe the projected person in one’s inner space. These sessions gave us so much confidence in playing with the different powers as we saw the different expressions by others. Swamiji shared that after Kumbh Mela, he will continue to guide us in expressing the powers in daily satsang (morning discourse). Then came the final initiation called Astha Kanma – the 8 actions over 8 objects such as earth, water, fire, air, ether, plants and animals, other beings and the mind. When fully awakened, one can express 64 extraordinary powers (8 x 8) by playing with the multiple dimensions. He planted the seed of this powerful initiation in all of us on the 20th day of the program. People who didn’t have the patience and passion for the purpose they came for, they missed this final initiation. Swamiji once iterated that “Everything is only given. It can never be earned. But Sadashiva tests at least you have the ability to receive.”

After the completion of the program, it was celebration after celebration at different levels! Physically, emotionally, mentally and spiritually, we felt the intense bliss, fulfilment and  completion of this extraordinary program which raised us to a brand new level of existence. In Vedic tradition, powers are bestowed to people who are able to take responsibility for themselves and the world. Whether we are going to express the extraordinary powers, it is dependent on our decision to expand in responsibilism for the world.

In essence, this Suddhadvaitam program not only broke many of my patterns, it also gave me the clarity of one thing – the play of the human mind which derails us from seeking and experiencing a breakthrough in consciousness. If you have been working on aligning your mind to the Cosmic truths, you will sail through this program triumphantly. If you have entertained your physical, psychological and neurological ups and downs, you will miss the entire experience of this program. This is not even a program, it is a life-transforming gift of learning how to relax into Cosmos with trust and surrender even in moments of utter insecurity and realising that you are SadaShiva – Pure consciousness. Namaste 😀

Follow Your Heart

Do you follow your mind or your heart?

Before I turned 40, I was mostly following my mind as this was the way I was trained in school and by society. By the time I reached my late 20’s, I hit a snag in my life. Materially, I had everything I could possibly ask for in the outer world but in the inner world, I was in total shambles. I was lost in life lacking the source of inspirations and purpose. My body was aching so badly that I carried a constant irritation and non-fulfilment. The depression of success became my guest in my inner space!

It was only when I started the path of yoga which taught me how to listen to my heart again. It was my heart that led me to seek my true Self. I discovered that the heart never lies, but the untamed mind is the cunning one. Through authentic listening to my heart, my seeking led me to meet my Guru, Paramahamsa Nithyananda (fondly known as Swamiji). He created a big cognitive shift in me and gave me the courage and inspiration to follow my heart. He made me realise that fulfilment was the only thing I was truly seeking in my life.

In April 2009, I decided to leave my marketing profession at the peak of my career because I had to honour what my heart was yearning – not for material existence but to get back to my original state of Ananda (bliss). For the last seven years, I discovered my passion which is to enrich with world about the science of living enlightenment and the science of Yoga and healing. Without a binding corporate job, I was able to explore and experiment so many new things in life like starting up my own business, volunteering for children programs and discovering the space of a child, writing a blog site sharing my experiences with yoga and healing in laymen terms, conducting healing workshops for various modern ailments like insomnia and anxiety, enjoying more quality time with my son, most of all – doing what I like which is deepening my spiritual knowledge and practice. All these wouldn’t be possible when I was having a marketing career. Honeslty, at this current life stage, because of my courage to follow my heart, I am able to experience so much fulfilment, freedom and joy. There is no tension nor irritation but only pure inspirations and an inexhaustible energy to manifest a new reality as I want.

How did I make the shift?

One fundamental question everyone needs to ask themselves is – ‘At the end of my life, is my mind going to judge whether I am a success or failure, or is my heart going to judge whether I am a success or failure?’

The truth is only your heart is going to judge, your mind loses its power on you at your deathbed. When you are doing the final calculation of your life, your heart is going to be the judge, not your mind. If your mind is the judge, all the rich fellows should have a complete and satisfying death, because as far as the mind is concerned, the material things such as money, status, enjoyment, beauty and everything – it was a great life. All the people who are rich, who asked for all these material things: good husband, amazing kids, wonderful house, and good friends and family, should be having a very fulfilling death, a very satisfying end. But that is not happening because fulfilment is what that matters.

Swamiji says:“Fundamentally it is your heart which is going to be the judge of whether your life is satisfied, complete, or if you have wasted your life. The heart is the one which is going to tell whether you are fulfilled or not. The mind is just a prostitute as it will just play any side it wants. One small reason is enough for the mind to completely tumble you, make you lose the very basis of your life.”

Why do you think people commit suicide?

Swamiji explained that this is because when the mind tumbles you, it makes you imbalanced, you do some things impulsively which you can never repair after that. Suicide is always the decision of the mind, never of the heart. People say ‘Oh, his heart is broken, so he committed suicide’. No. His mind is broken, hence he committed suicide. It is never the heart. Whenever you have a dilemma between the mind and the heart, always choose the heart, because even if you are a failure as per the mind’s cognition, the heart is the one who is going to make the judgment at the end of your life.

In essence, follow your heart because it is the heart which is going to lead you to the ultimate fulfilment of your life. Namaste. 😀

The Nurturing Space of Cosmic Mother

The last 7 days had been so amazing ever since I started the workshop on divine feminine consciousness!

Some of you may have read my previous article on “Woman & feminine consciousness” dated June 2013. In that article I made a conscious decision to help women to heal and raise themselves, undoing the damages done by the unconscious society. I am so happy that finally this is happening, Cosmos is fulfilling this intention of mine in ways that I am feeling so in awe.

Just to give the context of the divine feminine consciousness to those who are new to this sacred concept. In Vedic tradition, the ancient rishis and masters realised that from the Source, the undisturbed existence of pure consciousness, a primal alteration happened, the process of evolution finally reached the state of a perfect cosmic unrest, a state that allowed unlimited manifestation of form. The first two inseparable yet distinct aspects of existence emerge. They are called the Siva Tattwa and Sakthi Tattwa which are the beginning of cosmic evolution. Both aspects remain ever present, every prevalent and cannot exist without the other. They are also known as Purusha (cosmic spirit) and Prakrithi (the cosmic substance). The entire world is nothing but a manifestation of the cosmic spirit and its substance. Every form, subtle and gross, is nothing but the cosmic principle in an assumed or derived state.

Prakrithi, the cosmic substance is the divine feminine consciousness that is responsible for everything you see and experience. Worshipping this energy is called the mother worship. Mother worship is unique to Vedic tradition, it is a gift to planet earth. All sacred things are looked upon as feminine in Vedic traditions. For example, the energy of Knowledge is Goddess Saraswati, the energy of Power and Courage is Goddess Durga and the energy of wealth and abundance is Goddess Lakshmi. In Hinduism, the river Ganga is considered to be sacred and is personified as a goddess Ganga. The source of divine or creation is mother energy, in each of us there is an energy which constantly gives birth. That energy is divine feminine consciousness.

In this workshop, I could see how the powerful nurturing space of Cosmic Mother opened up the inner most part of each participant which enabled them to heal their patterns of fear and self-doubt created by the societal conditioning. The process gave women the space to connect with the innate creative force through fun expressions like dance, movements, art, poetry, yoga, pranayama and Vedic chanting, so that they can be as they are. One lady shared that she remembered an incident that caused her to suppress her creativity when she was once told by her art teacher that she drew like an elephant with no finesse. The words created a huge self-doubt in her inner space which made her believe that she could never draw. It was in this workshop that she re-discovered that creative dimension in her again.

Another lady shared that she had suffered all her life a fear of showing herself and her talents to the world because of a big self-doubt pattern developed from a traumatic experience when she landed on this planet. She was left crying, she felt unwanted and rejected by the world because nobody received her with love and warmth. That wrong cognition started the pattern of fear and giving up on herself. In the past, she would run away from new possibilities because of this fear. Through this workshop, she was inspired by one participant who was a self-taught artist. This artist discovered her talent only during her lowest point in life when she was depressed and suicidal. It became a major turning point for her which made her who she is today. It was such a great inspiration for many other women. The sharing helped this fearful lady to become aware of this incompletion of fear, she decided to drop this fear and embrace her possibilities.

Through this work, I realised a few important lessons: 1) each one of us has a life story which can inspire others to get back to the Source of who we are, 2) It is in the nurturing space of the Cosmic mother that healing happens because she is always non-judgmental, forever compassionate and receptive, 3) When we just exist as we are, we are connected to the energy of Cosmic Mother, 4) It is by healing and awakening the suppressed feminine consciousness in women that they can start to become a powerful change agent for the humanity.

In essence, women have a better role to play on raising the collective human consciousness instead of creating infrastructure like men; we are the living models and examples of intense passive life energy. Let’s connect back to the nurturing space of Cosmic Mother. Namaste 😀